My God is amazing, isn't He? He is the most loving, forgiving, powerful, inspiring, challenging, kind, giving, and perfect God. And I am so blessed to have been in an intimate and wonderful relationship with Him for six months and one day. I don't deserve it, but the longer I am a disciple the more I realize that that's the point God has been trying to make to me. His love is so much bigger than what I truly deserve. He has saved me and trusts me and loves me and He deeply desires for me to reciprocate this. This journey has been just that, a journey. One in which I have already faced many obstacles, grown immensely, and learned a lot about myself. It has definitely not been easy (just ask anyone who knows me). I have experienced things that I never thought I would go through and have gone through very defining moments of my character. I can't say I have handled all things with the grace and ease I would have wished to handle them. Just recently Haley's plan for her life took a pretty sharp detour and I had to once again pry the steering wheel from my controlling hands and hand it back to God. I have constantly been reminded along this journey that my plan is not perfect and never will be, only God's is. I am growing in trusting this. I am happy to say that although my faith and conviction has been challenged, I have not wavered. I know there will come a day where I will but I am writing this to remind my future self and you readers that even when we waver, we serve a God who never will. So for the next six months, minus one day, I hope to grow and and learn and become more of the disciple God wants me to be. As each day passes, I only want to continue to seek the truth and never grow tired of going after my relationship with God.
So God, thank you for seeing my true worth and loving me and all my imperfections. I don't deserve it but am so happy for the gift you have given me.
Eternally yours,
~haley grace
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